Currently I’m in such slowed-down mode but still eager to do things, just the required pace doesn’t fit me.

Experiencing troubles at school, slippage of dates, but I just can’t force myself to be stressed about it and try to catch up with the requirements. Even though I’m nervous about not being nervous, I realize it might be much better than the consequences of being stressed as hell.

It is always better “not to give a f_ck” a little more, than little less. At least as long as you have the choice.