I’ve seen some body features implying how could I be, 2 minutes ago. If I just weren’t that stupid.

For a moment I felt continous.

I have developed an ability to avoid unpleasant duties, like learning, by being nervous and uncontrollable. I don’t avoid it actually, all the stupid activities just put it off and make it worse. Blaming everything around.

The revelation won’t make it better, just practice would. It’s all about habits, learned stances, so many times practiced behaviour.

I should be somewhere else.